Freaks&Geeks

In the beg. the episode you see your average social groups, popular people and losers. Throughout the episode you see how the differences are made more clear. Like the way they dress, nerds wearing huge glasses, Lindsay trying to rebel& wear her dads old army jacket instead of her normal clothes. I thought it was interesting how Lindsay wore the same jacket everyday and the blond girl who is already popular wears that blue vest jacket everyday. the popular people had power in the beg. like the blond girl dumping Lindsay's bag out&the bully that kept threatening to beat up Lindsay's little brother. In the end though anyone who wanted to had power because Lindsay didn't let the blond girl or anyone else affect her thoughts, she went to the homecoming dance& danced with Eli anyways. Also the nerds beat up the bully so he didn't have power over them anymore. I found it interesting that when Lindsay wasn't rebeling anymore and started having fun at the dance that she took her jacket off.

Silence

I think when you first get into a new school there are no awkward silences unless you do something other kids aren't used to. I never went to a new school mid year but I do remember always wanting to know about the"new kid". I don't really know what makes them interesting I've had class with people since I was 6 and could care less about asking them what state they came from. But getting back to the point I think silence is only awkward if you make it awkward, or rather if you feel it's awkward. Nobody controls what you think and if for some reason you find it awkward then no matter what the person across from you or next to you thinks then it is. I can remember when I first got into highschool it was almost like preschool again because whoever anyone sat next to they would talk to them since they were nervous. I was more nice than usual that day because everyone seemed to be on edge. But once you get to know the person or get to talking to them if you find they are not your cup of tea it could get awkward since you're stuck sitting next to them the rest of class, that has happened to me a couple times. And I do believe some people talk due to nervous or they just enjoy the sound of their own voice but that hasn't ever really affected my ability to listen. The only time I don't listen is if I'm angry or tired. Bottom line silence is awakward based on opinion.

Who Am I?

I am a completely different person than I was a year ago. Obviously everyone changes overtime from preschool to senior year of high school but almost exactly a year ago I realized I wasn't the person I wanted to be for the rest of my life. I had goals above what I could've reached had I stayed the way I was. I hope to be a kindergarten teacher one day but the unmotivated slacker I was wasn't the example I wanted to reveal to children. I knew no one could change me except myself and I didn't know how to go about changing besides starting fresh. The first step I took to start new was by grounding myself. I knew if I allowed myself out of the house I would surely be more influenced to hang out with people I shudn't. So while staying under my own house arrest I decided who I should and shouldn't allow myself to talk to anymore. I went back to the root of my friendships and those who would help me through this change would be the people I stayed in contact with. That was without a doubt the greatest change I've made for myself and in my life. Now the biggest influence to myself is myself. The people who have always been there for me and what makes me happy without disappointing anyone in the process. My goal, as I said, was to be a kindergarten teacher. My purpose is to help people find the good in life without anything more than themselves.